SETTEZ

I'd lay there underneath the rain Past memories of loss and gain Desperate to wash away the pain   But all this anguish I keep inside. A blank slate to start once more Emotions scattered on the floor Confusion I will no longer endure To my body I do not belong. There is dried blood upon my wrists Scars fading, though the pain persists Who I was is no longer missed I don't even recognise my face. My personality I begin to rebuild Perfection that I struggle to yield Self-doubt was close to being killed My life had hope renewed. Just when my soul was mending Always the optimist, pretending Blinding myself with happy endings Ma

Telling untruths, Though i'm not sure why, Feeling disconnected, And not able to cry, Wanting inclusion, Though just standing still, Understanding others, But never knowing how I feel...

I retreat to my bedroom Where I lay in a daze Reflecting upon my life Past memories in a haze I feel so completely numb No emotions penetrate this façade All the wounds have healed wrong So forever I am scarred The nerves that were severed Remain brutally detached and dead I can't sense anything around me Except this misery that I have spread Unable to cry, too uncaring to scream Passive and remote in every way Not able to express what's happening in my mind The words are too unclear to say...